i was excited. @shakidd warned me edi that i must not check now since its too early to detect. but at that point of time, hubby was super anxious! he was going like

.....

i am not. p r e g n a n t

on the 4th, i was expecting my menses. but no red man seen. i never tot of it cause i was dissapointed on the 3 rd. i wud never want to get dissapointed again.. i cried my eyes out. the reason why i cried was, im worried. im worried that once upon a time when i wish i dont want to get pregnant until i gets old, like real old will come true!

i duwan to get old to get a baby. n what if im old n i cant conceive. that worries me the most. a few of coliqs is not pregnant yet too. like lately, ive came across alot of people who has not conceived 1 year after marriage! dear god, i take back my words. i want to have a baby.

people. n today is the 8TH of JULY! im yet to have my menses. i stopped having sex, just afraid that we might have HARDCORE sex that the becoming foetus would eventually be awaken n fell. im so precautios. i make sure i drink juice n milk every night. im always hungry. im always tired. my back aches. i vomitted once. i had headaches last week.my breast is sore. n im YET TO HAVE MENSES.